my world

s.os. !! help me people. what do you when you think your gonna lose the person who means everything to you? what do you do when you cry every night and day and you randomly burst into tears because the girl you love wants time to think and acts like she wants more then time to think she wants to leave you all together, i dont know what to do im highly dipressed and i cant even express it right now, i can barely type my whole bodies shaking, in fear in worry, i love this girl, i dont wanna lose her. she the greatest person ive ever known shes what makes me want to live shes what makes life good, and if i lose her life will just SUCK! it wont mean anything to me ill become athiest for one because i cant see god doing this to me he knows how much i love her, he knows i lay down every night and the moon is right out side my window and i just look at it and it feels like jessies watching over me during the night, kinda thier holding me and protecting me, and i shut my lights off turn to the moon outside my window and say i love you jessie goodnight, and i smile and go to sleep, but what i cant do that anymore, what i have to lose all these feeling s and forget about my plans with her in the future, :( HOW DO I DO THIS DAMNT! i cant i dont know how for five months all ive known how to do is love, love with all my heart and soul, how do i teach myself to just let go and now love anymore. thats what people must mean my breaking your heart, when you fall in love your heart is put togeher its like a puzzel, the pieces are love, honesty, eternity, and hope. when you break up or divorce whater you have to stop so that has to go its all got to be taken apart, first goes hope and eternity then honesty and last love, love takes the longest to break and when it does i think you die, or at least i will when i have to take it out. ok well im crying alot right now im sorry i cant keep writing ill write more later, seriously people give me some answers,
jessie, i love you please seriosuly let me keep you
love forever nelle

I sorry i wasn't at school babe. Good job on the bio test! prob. alot better than i did. i send now so u know i'm on. I love you!